I hold on
To a destroyed dream
A hope long bruised
A delusional reality

Why
Do I hold on, hang on?
I am stuck on the why
I thought you let me go
Truly you never held me

How
Did I not fit in your reality,
The way I molded my life around yours

What
Went wrong for our definition of perfection to mismatch?
What Was I missing?

I still hold on, hang on
Because my mind is stubborn
And my heart is rebellious

Why
Did you fly off,
Leaving me crawling and hurting
Pushing the knife in my wound on each layover

Please leave
You don’t deserve to stay
Yet I can’t let you go
Cursed is what I am
Because I forever love …